The Good Lord blessed me with big feet
but not a big.....
I'm a female, though, so it's cool.
So, I really like Friendster and MySpace. I know it's nerdy and corny, but I'm on a lot of those sites actually - like Hi5, Orkut, and The Names Database. But I really only use Friendster and MySpace on the regular. It's been an interesting way to connect with people I've lost touch with over the years and to meet some intriguing people as well. And it's a great way to meet wierdos too, FYI. Over the summer, I connected with this cat out in Wisconsin, DJ Pain from Extortion Entertainment because he'd put a bulletin out in this one group on Friendster looking for Punjabi singers. I haven't sang for him yet, but I did have a chance to put some of my writing out there by reading a poem of mine over his intro track. Pain is an awfully cool cat, and, though his forte is down-tempo and hiphop, he's also randomly into various types of desi music- Bollywood, South Asian underground, Bhangra, etc. He created an album called "Bollywood Ka Bacha" under the guise of his Punjabi alter-ego, R.K.S. If you listen to it, you'll hear some crazy old school Bollywood tracks with new flavor. You'll also hear some of El Guante's mc'ing - El Guante is also from Extortion Entertainment, and is a skilled mc. You don't hear a lot of those anymore. AND, if you check out Bollywood Ka Bacha, you can also hear me speaking on the intro track. :)
I really do love music. I can't get away from it. I love singing, (I would just sing all day if I could), but at this point, the only public venues that I've sang at have been limited to kirtans, kitty parties, cultural programs, and school functions. There's always been something holding me back. Perhaps it's a fear of leaving myself vulnerable and open to criticism. Hey, if I'm singing/writing for myself, there's only one critic I have to please. Perhaps it's an awareness of what the lifestyle tends to be like - and knowing the ramifications in terms of my family. I have a certain role that I'm meant to fulfill - it can feel stifling at times. I'm very much my own person, (sometimes too much of an independent thinker), but I feel sometimes that I lead a dual life. Not that I'm a different person, or that my personality differs depending on whether my parents are around or not, but moreso that I'm aware of what my family expects of me, what they understand about me and my personality, and why they feel how they feel, and this guides how much of myself, and my feelings, I do or don't share with them. My life has brought me to many different people involved with music in one way or another, and, being a firm believer in things happening for a reason, I've come to the realization that there will always be a part of me that is unsatisfied unless I actually have some substantive connection to it. It's intimidating; I'm still a youngin' in the general scheme of things, but when you look at the music industry, more specifically, artists in Punjabi music (singers, dholis, etc.) coming out of the US, many artists have gotten a much earlier start. If anything, whether they're any good or not, they have experience at marketing themselves as writers, singers, musicians, etc. I do my own thing - I've usually shied away from doing that, except when it came to dancing. I've just enjoyed singing/writing more by myself, and have tended to be shy towards marketing myself as such. My mom tends to be my unsolicited marketing consultant, especially at kitty parties. Some aunty will come downstairs, and shriek, "Deepaaaa!! You're mom's calling you!!" Ugh, what song shall your performing monkey sing for you today, aunty? It feels wierd. I sing best when I'm by myself, driving in my car, (his name is Shera) - I have nothing holding me back. I'm working on it though. Baby steps. Sometimes you just have to bite your lip and go for it. Life is too short - if you see an opportunity, and you feel in your gut that it's right, why not go for it? I know I'm not absolutely horrible - what do I have to lose? When I see others I know pursuing singing, or having a bite at the apple, part of me feels jealous. There's a bigger part of me that feels disatisfied with myself for not having taken any action towards pursuing what I'm already aware will make me happy. If I've written up to this point, whether it's a story, a song, a shayr, or whatever, I've tended to keep what I know to be the best of my writing to myself. There are some rare occasions where I decide to open up and put it out there. But again... baby steps. The only thing holding me back is me. I'm hoping to take bigger and bigger steps as each day passes. No one else can do it for me.
But who knows where my life will take me? I'm so happy in law school. Maybe I'm meant to be in entertainment law. I haven't started seriously considering it yet, but I've decided to explore it. Maybe I'll be a transactional lawyer and buy a record company like some lawyers.... maybe I'll end up as a civil rights attorney by day and lounge singer by night...
I've gotten some good feedback on the track I did with Pain - I've actually decided to start maybe putting more of my writing out there, and maybe even try my hand at songwriting....
Stay tuned!
Today's object of:
Affection: Coffee.
You're like an abusive boyfriend. You're so bad for me, but you make me feel soooo good.
Hateration: Unreliable people.
F.U.
I'm a female, though, so it's cool.
So, I really like Friendster and MySpace. I know it's nerdy and corny, but I'm on a lot of those sites actually - like Hi5, Orkut, and The Names Database. But I really only use Friendster and MySpace on the regular. It's been an interesting way to connect with people I've lost touch with over the years and to meet some intriguing people as well. And it's a great way to meet wierdos too, FYI. Over the summer, I connected with this cat out in Wisconsin, DJ Pain from Extortion Entertainment because he'd put a bulletin out in this one group on Friendster looking for Punjabi singers. I haven't sang for him yet, but I did have a chance to put some of my writing out there by reading a poem of mine over his intro track. Pain is an awfully cool cat, and, though his forte is down-tempo and hiphop, he's also randomly into various types of desi music- Bollywood, South Asian underground, Bhangra, etc. He created an album called "Bollywood Ka Bacha" under the guise of his Punjabi alter-ego, R.K.S. If you listen to it, you'll hear some crazy old school Bollywood tracks with new flavor. You'll also hear some of El Guante's mc'ing - El Guante is also from Extortion Entertainment, and is a skilled mc. You don't hear a lot of those anymore. AND, if you check out Bollywood Ka Bacha, you can also hear me speaking on the intro track. :)
I really do love music. I can't get away from it. I love singing, (I would just sing all day if I could), but at this point, the only public venues that I've sang at have been limited to kirtans, kitty parties, cultural programs, and school functions. There's always been something holding me back. Perhaps it's a fear of leaving myself vulnerable and open to criticism. Hey, if I'm singing/writing for myself, there's only one critic I have to please. Perhaps it's an awareness of what the lifestyle tends to be like - and knowing the ramifications in terms of my family. I have a certain role that I'm meant to fulfill - it can feel stifling at times. I'm very much my own person, (sometimes too much of an independent thinker), but I feel sometimes that I lead a dual life. Not that I'm a different person, or that my personality differs depending on whether my parents are around or not, but moreso that I'm aware of what my family expects of me, what they understand about me and my personality, and why they feel how they feel, and this guides how much of myself, and my feelings, I do or don't share with them. My life has brought me to many different people involved with music in one way or another, and, being a firm believer in things happening for a reason, I've come to the realization that there will always be a part of me that is unsatisfied unless I actually have some substantive connection to it. It's intimidating; I'm still a youngin' in the general scheme of things, but when you look at the music industry, more specifically, artists in Punjabi music (singers, dholis, etc.) coming out of the US, many artists have gotten a much earlier start. If anything, whether they're any good or not, they have experience at marketing themselves as writers, singers, musicians, etc. I do my own thing - I've usually shied away from doing that, except when it came to dancing. I've just enjoyed singing/writing more by myself, and have tended to be shy towards marketing myself as such. My mom tends to be my unsolicited marketing consultant, especially at kitty parties. Some aunty will come downstairs, and shriek, "Deepaaaa!! You're mom's calling you!!" Ugh, what song shall your performing monkey sing for you today, aunty? It feels wierd. I sing best when I'm by myself, driving in my car, (his name is Shera) - I have nothing holding me back. I'm working on it though. Baby steps. Sometimes you just have to bite your lip and go for it. Life is too short - if you see an opportunity, and you feel in your gut that it's right, why not go for it? I know I'm not absolutely horrible - what do I have to lose? When I see others I know pursuing singing, or having a bite at the apple, part of me feels jealous. There's a bigger part of me that feels disatisfied with myself for not having taken any action towards pursuing what I'm already aware will make me happy. If I've written up to this point, whether it's a story, a song, a shayr, or whatever, I've tended to keep what I know to be the best of my writing to myself. There are some rare occasions where I decide to open up and put it out there. But again... baby steps. The only thing holding me back is me. I'm hoping to take bigger and bigger steps as each day passes. No one else can do it for me.
But who knows where my life will take me? I'm so happy in law school. Maybe I'm meant to be in entertainment law. I haven't started seriously considering it yet, but I've decided to explore it. Maybe I'll be a transactional lawyer and buy a record company like some lawyers.... maybe I'll end up as a civil rights attorney by day and lounge singer by night...
I've gotten some good feedback on the track I did with Pain - I've actually decided to start maybe putting more of my writing out there, and maybe even try my hand at songwriting....
Stay tuned!
Today's object of:
Affection: Coffee.
You're like an abusive boyfriend. You're so bad for me, but you make me feel soooo good.
Hateration: Unreliable people.
F.U.
posted by Musiqal Light at 11:43 AM
1 Comments:
eh~
From what I remember,you have a lot of talent in the singing field...AND if we've known you long enough...well,you have sang in front of us....even if it's in your car ;)....coffee is a good thing,I agree......
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